Sid's Closet

COOKIES!

2009-12-07T16:53:52Z

Pretty, pretty snowflake cookies. *loves*

Thank you advection , perfica , krossero , amnellwyvern , sgflutegirl , lunachickk , wraith816 and gillianinoz !!!

I, too, am a lemming

2009-12-03T00:31:53Z

THE FANFICTION LOVE MEME

An addition to a fic tree branch

2009-12-02T01:47:15Z

So, okay, over in sg1_fic_trees there is a completed branch of the 'Fluffy' entry. But a few months ago cesy started Branch Two. And, srsly, I meant to add to it way back then, but let myself get hung up on a technicality and never completed my response.

But it's been on my to-do list!

To follow along - and contribute, please, if you are inspired! - start with the intial post and the first comment, followed by the next comment that continues the story, and then skip down to the bottom for Branch Two.

What happens next?

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Another Clichéathon fic - wherein Jack and Daniel are forced to share body heat

2009-11-28T04:55:25Z

A PG-rated drabble for the Jack/Daniel clichéathon at jackdanielpromptfic: Survival 101.3a-Jack

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Five Things - Set 84

2009-11-26T02:59:07Z

Five times Daniel didn't have a clue

Five people who make Cam smile when he thinks about them
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'Aliens Made Us Have Bad Sex', Jack/Daniel, rated R

2009-11-21T06:26:15Z

For the Jack/Daniel Clicheathon! At jackdanielpromptfic!

500 words, R rated!

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Daniel's head - a Dreamverse addendum

2009-11-20T05:58:26Z

Just stumbled across this tonight and thought I would share. These are notes written on May 17th, sometime before the last two Dreamverse chapters were written. The entire series was written from Jack's POV, and some very wise people made it clear to me that the reasons for Daniel's behavior were going to need to be explained before all was said and done.

I spent a five hour drive to Wisconsin communing with Daniel, and the following notes were the result. The bit that is underlined was the big revelation that made everything else make sense.

I hope fans of the Dreamverse series will enjoy this outline of a love story. :-)

WHY NOT

1. Daniel fell in love – why did he talk himself out of pursuing it?

Incompatibility – they would drive each other insane.

Jack’s career – danger of being caught.

He was the one who opened the Stargate and put Earth in danger – he wouldn’t assume the risk of undermining the program by getting Jack and/or himself kicked out.

Attracted to Jack even while he was searching for Sha’re – that guilt left a bad taste in his mouth

Their lives were too filled with danger – one of them could lose the other so easily, and Daniel was afraid of being the one left behind

He decided that longing for Jack’s touch just meant that he needed to be touched – Bjorn was the third man he dated (he had sex with the first one, not the second.)

2. Why didn’t he react when Jack told him that he loved him?

He never assumed that Jack was straight, because he could sense that the attraction was mutual – and he probably knew that Jack had fallen in love almost before Jack did.

Nothing really changed just because Jack had declared himself – all Daniel’s previous reasons still stood.

And there was Bjorn – so easy to be with, interesting, fun, attractive, good in bed, loving and warm.

Assuming that he was good in bed, Jack was all of those things that Bjorn was, too – but if he were to actually be with Jack, it would stop being easy.

He wasn’t going to throw away all the good things he and Bjorn had only to wind up losing his best friend, too.

3. Why did he fight to get Bjorn back when he knew Jack was probably still available?

All his previous reasons for not being with Jack still stood. (Although recent events had shaken his convictions. Bjorn made a strong case for Daniel pursuing his dreams with Jack.)

He didn’t want to be alone, couldn’t face going back to that – he and Bjorn were happy together, made each other happy

Bjorn was leaving him for the wrong reason; it was a pointless sacrifice. But noble. And Daniel had to admire that, had to feel a bit of awe.

Maybe it was love, maybe not. Maybe it was love before – probably not. Not really. It was a given that Bjorn’s feelings went deeper than Daniel’s. Daniel just needed to prove to Bjorn that his feelings now went deeper than ever.

(Of course then Jack, well, it wasn’t exactly a sacrifice, but Daniel couldn’t imagine what it had cost him to convince Bjorn to give Daniel another chance. And Daniel couldn’t help but love him even more, in a wistful way.)

WHY NOW

Dying

Daniel realized that he was the one leaving Jack behind after all, and that he’d cheated Jack out of the memory of a love that he could cherish, and lost his own opportunity to experience Jack’s love.

Bjorn had told him that if he moved back to Denmark, Daniel would miss him for a little while and then move on, but if Jack were to move away the core of Daniel’s life would be cut out. Bjorn had been right, and Daniel had been wrong to live in denial of the truth.

He realized that by clinging to Bjorn when he was trying to step aside to let Daniel be with Jack, he’d kept Bjorn from the chance to find a true, lasting love of his own.

He’d been selfish and cowardly.

He hoped he wasn’t leaving Jack with bitter regrets. He was too far gone to feel bitter regret on his own behalf.

Ascended (Abyss)

Daniel was beyond physical desire or emotional need, but he was filled with love for all life.

Bjorn was one treasured drop in the ocean of humanity, but Jack he held in his heart.

Jack saw the love in his eyes because Daniel had no reason to hide it – nothing to fear, nothing to want in return – it never would have occurred to him to try to conceal what he was feeling.

Would he have done anything differently if he knew he was going to Descend? No. There really wasn’t much human about Daniel when he appeared to Jack – he really was Above It All.

Amnesiac

He had no idea who he was, where he came from, what kind of a man he’d been, what the future would hold. But he felt, almost from the beginning, as he watched the people of Vis Uban interact with each other, that somewhere he’d loved and been loved. It was like a piece of him was missing. Or, since all of him was missing, maybe that was the one piece that remained.

Vis Uban was all he knew, and the strangers were strangers. He’d thought that maybe the woman was the one, but no part of him had hoped for it to be true. He felt emptier than he had before they came. He would never feel anything other than emptiness if they left without him. He made his decision, still without hope or excitement, and went with them to the place they said was his home.

The one called Jack confused him. He wasn’t like the others. Jack had kept his things, held onto his former life – expected him to come back? Jack vibrated with barely suppressed feelings of some sort, setting up sympathetic vibrations in him. He’d realized he was bi-sexual before he had a word for it, because it wasn’t just widows, hopeful mothers of nubile girls and cautious fathers of same that had delicately approached him on Vis Uban.

He was vaguely drawn to Jack, but it was easy to resist, a weak undercurrent in the river that was carrying him forward to his past.

Starting to remember

All sorts of things were coming back to him, bits and pieces and chunks. Jack. Laughs and terror and fights and movie nights and boring missions and yard work and grocery shopping and Jack going missing and more fights and… being held. Jack’s scent.

Jumbled sexual impressions: that one Sha’re, that one… a boy from college? Someone not Sha’re… a taste, a touch, masculine…

Jack declaring his love with an almost perfectly blank face full of hope and fear and longing… because Daniel could read him, because his heart knew him.

Jack was the one.

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Do you love Jack?

2009-11-20T01:34:55Z

Run do not walk to view l_jade's Weekend Thunk. Jack through the years. Simply guh.

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Mezzanine AU 'be like water' remix, NC-17, het

2009-11-14T06:20:35Z

synecdochic asked for porn, so I've attempted to remix her own glorious porn.

So this is a remix of an AU of an AU of an AU of an AU. *squints* The original AU being in the SG-1 episode 'The Road Not Taken', which gives us a Cameron Mitchell who is confined to a wheelchair, never having fully recovered after crashing his F-302 in Antarctica. The Broken Wings 'verse gives us a Cam who is part-way between that Cam and canon Cam and who's involved with Jack O'Neill's clone, JD Nielson. The Mezzanine 'verse gives us his female counterpart, Cammie Mitchell, who is partnered with JD, plus (eventually) Daniel Jackson. And then there's this new AU of Mezzanine (Gedulah), which is still being constructed by synecdochic and ivorygates, and we don't know a hell of a lot about it yet, but synecdochic posted an outtake, which was the breathtaking 'Be Like Water', linked above, which gives us Daniel Jackson in the role of voyeur.

And I did a bit of a remix, which can be found behind the cut. ~575 words, NC-17.

They both know Daniel’s there, because Cammie sees it in Nielson’s split-second loss of focus. He doesn’t move or look away, but for just a moment he’s listening, and not to her, not to her body. And then there’s a subtle shift of his shoulders, and she doesn’t know if it’s intended to communicate to her, but it does; and she knows, when he kisses her thigh and says, “Come on, sweetheart, just let go for me,” that she’s reacted in some infinitesimal way and he’s gentling her. Encouraging her to go with the flow and carpe noctem and we’ve talked about this, Mitchell.

He knows she knows, and his next words and actions prove it, as he jokes about her having an exhibitionism kink even as he shifts his body, kissing down her leg and exposing her to Daniel’s gaze. She was already open to Nielson, accepting and welcoming his lovemaking, and now something within her opens to Daniel, warms under his invisible gaze. Nielson’s fingers move, deep inside her, and she can’t tell, really can’t at this very fucking moment tell whether Daniel’s presence is fundamentally adding to her already intense arousal.

But she suspects it is. So she denies it of course. "I don't have a -- oh God, you bastard, God I'm gonna kill you --" Her fingers curl into Nielson’s hair as his thumb strokes her clit, and they both laugh with the excitement of a secret shared, with the joy of loving and wanting, with the acknowledgment and dismissal of her feeble lie. She pulls his head down to her, arching up to greet him, and blooms under the touch of his mouth, the gentle press of his teeth. "I don't have an exhibitionism kink," she manages to say before she loses herself in the sensations that are softly consuming her.

Nielson’s fingers twist and gently thrust, opening and filling her, and her body responds, taking him in and squeezing down on him, pulsing around him. She throbs, and it’s a dark and satisfying counterpoint to the high-pitched need centered around his tongue, his teeth, her clit. Her body tenses, her hands pull, demand, yet cradle Nielson’s skull (thick, thick skull) like a fragile treasure.

As Cammie’s shaking fingers caress Nielson’s head, her mind reaches out to Daniel. See. No play-acting. Nielson is warm and familiar and beloved beneath her hand. Her breath hitches. Nielson recognizes the sound, the sign, and guides her body into alignment, freeing her to flow through her imminent orgasm.

See. See. Her body begins to shake and she holds back her cry, biting her lip, as Nielson’s tongue laps harder, forcing and lifting her to completion. Her head falls back. Pleasure explodes.

See.

Her hands relax and she lets them fall to rest on Nielson’s warm shoulders. Reaches one up to trail along his forehead, pushing his hair back. His mouth leaves her with a final kiss. She raises her head with an effort and smiles down at him. She would never attempt to conceal her love at a moment like this, but this moment is different from any other they’ve shared, and the difference is there in Nielson’s yearning eyes.

His fingers are still buried inside her, and she tightens slowly around them. When she relaxes, after-pulses continue, squeezing lightly against him.

Nielson’s eyes change, smile.

They’re only getting started. There’s so much more that they need Daniel to see.

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Five Things rec

2009-11-12T20:40:13Z

Five times that Thor beamed Jack up at a really inappropriate time

Read 'em all! Lots of laughs. :-)

(There's a fairly canon degree of attraction to Sam in the last two responses, but no relationship - and funny!)

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Pimping and Five Things (which is self-pimping)

2009-11-10T05:02:51Z

Set 83: Five Things Vala gave up to join SG-1. Gen.

The master list so far for the Cam Trope Ficathon. Some of the stories are on DW and some on LJ. There's apocafic, bodyswap, robots, time loops. :-) And pairings include Cam/Daniel, Cam/Sheppard, Cam/Teal'c.

Along the same lines, The Jack/Daniel Clicheathon is running on jackdanielpromptfic thru December 7th. What to write, what to write. I've never done amnesia!fic that didn't involve descended Daniel, so maybe I'll try to come up with something for that. Anyway, watch the comm for goodies! Two funtastic fics have already posted. *G*

Hey, remember when I posted about the episode of One Step Beyond that traumatized me as a child? I speculated that seeing this could have been what convinced John Sheppard that clowns were very, very scary. Well, dithsun wrote a little John/Rodney, PG-13 riff on that idea. \o/

Hate Stargate: Universe? If the answer is "no", then do not come over and see what's happening at stargate_schadenfreude. (Otherwise, yeah, drop in and join in the mocking.)

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'and speak each other in passing' (NC-17, Cam/Daniel)

2009-11-02T09:11:44Z

My Cam!trope fic, written to the prompt: Quantum Mirror

The idea behind these cm_tropefic offerings is that it's a dirty shame that just because Cam came along late in the game he didn't get his fair share of Amnesia, Clone, AMTDI, Stranded, etcetera fics.

Or Alternate Universes. Like the one that Cam and Daniel flee to in order to escape from Ori troops.

'and speak each other in passing', 8750 words, NC-17, Cam/Daniel with a generous helping of AU General O'Neill and Doctor Samantha Carter.

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cowers in the corner

2009-10-31T06:59:10Z

This episode of the 1960's series One Step Beyond absolutely terrified me as a child.

I remember that my mother had to walk me upstairs and certify that nothing was hiding in my closet. I remember being utterly convinced that my doll Suzy was lying in wait for me. Half an hour of television that I obviously had no business watching had completely wrecked my mind.

I saw it once on TV many years later, and just watched it again online. And, yeah, there's still enough creepiness to it... let's just say that if John Sheppard ever watched it that would explain why he believes that clowns are scary....

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Icontest community for Cam Mitchell on LJ

2009-10-31T04:35:33Z

Forgive me, I don't remember who pointed to mitchellstills in the first place! Maybe it was just listed as a new affiliate of some other Cam/Ben Browder community. But at any rate it's just tiny and just on the first challenge round, and could obviously use some more support.

You can vote here until tomorrow, for whatever value of "tomorrow" holds true for you. Tomorrow has already arrived for me in the Eastern US time zone.

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I love icons!

2009-10-31T01:40:19Z

If you love them, too, it may interest you to hear that Dreamwidth has just upped userpic limits: free users get 15, paid users 100, premium paid 250.

And, yep, I do have invite codes for creating free accounts (and that means ad-free, too). Let me know in comments if you're interested, or go here if you're interested in purchasing an account.

ETA a reminder that they're still in open beta over there, but if you haven't visited in a while you'll find that a good deal of the sawdust has settled and there are many more styles to choose from and active communities to join, etc.

pointing It isn't 'Come What May', but

2009-10-30T06:40:49Z

paian's done some lovely, smutty comment!ficcing! She's completed a branch at sg1_fic_trees of the NC-17 OT4 team shower fic that's set soon before Jack leaves for D.C. and Sam for Area 51.

There's a compilation post of the older comments, followed by a bit of housekeeping, and then princessofg kicks off the re-start in high gear and paianfic steps in and wraps the story up with some loving and steamy sexing, and marvellous camaraderie.

The O'Neill Method (OT4 version)

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Somebody's having a birthday?

2009-10-28T15:12:38Z

I stopped doing these, really...

But I'm going to assume that you didn't actually, you know, get a year older, right delph?

Well, then this didn't either! *g*

DELPH'S DAY DOUBLE DRABBLE

“Sheppard!” Rodney hurried into the room. “Did you just touch that?”

“No.” John did his best to look wounded.

“I told you not to touch it, didn’t I? Didn’t I? On penalty of death, as I recall.”

“I vaguely remember something like that, yeah.”

“’Yeah’,” Rodney mocked. “Where? Where did you….?”

“I told you…”

“Oh, give me a break. I should have known… ah! There!”

John was busted. He put on his most apologetic face. “Rodney, I swear. I heard it calling my name!”

Rodney snorted. “What are you, delusional, or do you think that I am?”

“No comment. Think it’ll be all right?” John leaned over anxiously to look. “It’s not too bad. Maybe she won’t even notice.”

“There is no way she’s not going to notice,” Rodney whined. “And she’s going to be here any second.”

“Maybe we can distract her?”

“Distract her? Distract delph from her birthday cake? Are you a complete moron?”

“There’s got to be a way.”

“Oh, yes, right. Such as?”

“I know! If she walks into the room and we’re in the middle of having sex….”

Rodney’s face lit up as he reached for John. “Yes! You totally should have been in Mensa!”

~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

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Comment!fic, Jack/Daniel, "Cacophony", NC-17

2009-10-26T12:11:29Z

Over at comment_fic, written for the prompt: Jack/Daniel, cacophony. 350 words

ETA Link! 'Cacophony'

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Fic rec! Jack/Daniel, NC-17, 'Something I Remembered'

2009-10-25T15:45:57Z

Run and read the lovely 7,000 word kinky fic that justhuman wrote for me in the 2009 Jack/Daniel ficathon!

You can read it on LJ,
or on Dreamwidth.

(I'm doing this backwards: I read the story yesterday evening and didn't get a chance to leave feedback yet, but I'm pimping it anyway. Now I can go and re-read leisurely and SQUEE!!!)

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SPIFFINESS!!

2009-10-21T02:06:58Z

Thank you to all my spiffy cheerleaders! Your encouragement meant so much!

Cam!trope fic is done and, er, marinating, while I watch my recording of NCIS and eat a terribly belated supper. I'll probably wait until morning and give the fic a complete (sober *g*) read-through before dumping it onto my beta volunteers.

I feel relatively good about the whole thing. I'm sure my betas will help me punch up any weak areas, but I'm SO happy about my twist on the Quantum Mirror trope. :-)

I'm a tease, yes. LOL

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Please to be cheerleading

2009-10-20T22:32:11Z

I'm trying to get my cam!trope fic finished. Please wave pom-poms and shout encouragement. :-)

There's an hour and a half before NCIS comes on, and I'll bet I can get it done. First crappy draft, anyway. Which my inner editor finds difficult. Hence my waffling and procrastinating.

ARGH!

:-)

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When in doubt....

2009-10-19T02:35:00Z

So many things to do: several J/D ficathon stories yet to read, my Cam!trope fic to finish, newspapers to read, Five Things to read and feedback.

I find myself unable to attack any of those things atm, and since I see that some of my circle/friends are feeling a bit down I invite you to join me in reading Dr Jackson's Diary, by Anais, for the month of October.

Or any other month that suits you - they're all indexed at the side of the page, and all the links work as far as I know. You can comment here with any favorite bits. :-)

I demand to feel happy. And the Diary has never failed yet!
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Five Things - Set 81

2009-10-13T03:58:04Z

Just one that I managed to dash off after posting my ficathon story: Four times Vala lied, and one time she told the truth

Love her or hate her, I think you'll get a giggle. *eg*

(*scratches head* I just realized that I left Cam out. Huh. I so had Jack on the brain.)

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'Hidden Truths', written for the 2009 Jack/Daniel ficathon, NC-17

2009-10-12T16:17:26Z

Find all the details and read the story at my Dreamwidth Journal!

NC-17 Jack/Daniel commentfic

2009-10-09T16:13:36Z

(Just call me Anonymous. *g*)

This was posted last month at sg_kink_meme: Request: Jack/Daniel, Penetration with an Ancient object

You can comment anonymously there on LJ or publicly here on DW, or both I suppose!

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